Wednesday, September 29, 2010
I want candy
Since my last post, nothing but good things have been happening for me. Not only was I able to stick up for myself in a situation where I would usually be passive, but I did it with assertiveness and grace. But mostly, this blog is about the men that have been flocking to me lately. For that past week or so, every time I turn around a new guy is making eyes at me. I'm not trying to brag. Actually, I am stunned. I haven't been this magnetic since I was a teenager. Guys I've just met, guys I have known for a long time, guys who were just "friends of a friend" that have gone out of their way to make my acquaintence, guys who have apparently held onto secret crushes on me for years. What's the deal? Is my new shampoo giving my hair extra bounce? Do my boobs look especially big in my new clothes? Maybe I'm putting out an entirely new vibe now that I love and embrace myself in a way I haven't since I was a conceited youth. All this unexpected attention feels good, but is slightly overwhelming. And then, of course, is the arduous task of deciding who is interested in sexual relations alone, and who may be in it for the long haul. I think I have a pretty good idea which is which and who is who, but let's not make any hasty decisions yet. Let's sit back and enjoy the fact that now that I love myself again, others want to love me too. So many, many options! Time to concentrate on making the right choice, perhaps for the first time ever.